about me
AYO, I'M TAYO!
I like pie.
& God, so so much.
JESUS IS LIFE.
I know the muffinman.
My family+friends come second.
Than that amazing thing called music.
& that's all you need to know.(:

archives
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008

links
my yootoob my fanfiction my graphics greatest band ever

credits
host CONSPIRE for codes

Thursday, June 26, 2008
"show me why my heart is beating"

Last night, my mother and I happened to catch a movie called, "Six: The Mark Unleashed." The first 15-20 minutes hint to nothing but criminals and such. -But the fact that it was on TBN intrigued us, so we kept watching.

I was absolutely astounded by this movie. It is such a good Christian flick. In all honesty, I've been trying to figure to myself why people would be so blind when they see movies like this. Why they don't even want to listen to what you have to say about Jesus.

One of the leads in the movie, Jerry Lewis(played by Kevin Downes, a Christian actor whom I'm very familiar with), who started out as a criminal in the movie. Hacking was his skill & stealing cars and such with his buddy, Brody Sutton(played by David White, another one I'm very familiar with), was completely in the norm for him.

But the entire movie is based around the Anti-Christ's reign, and the effect it will have on Christians. Trust me, this movie makes me hope and pray that He will rapture Christians into heaven before this can happen to us. haha. I'm such a woos. Anyway, the reason to my woosyness is because the Anti-Christ, makes you take the mark of the beast. Which is mentioned in the Bible, in Revelations. Now, if you aren't familiar with what exactly this is, I think it kind of speaks for itself, but it's a symbol that is unknown right now to what to be, but since the Anti-Christ will want world peace and such, it'll most likely be something like a united world sign, like in the movie, if you follow Satan, which is the Anti-Christ, you must imbedd this mark into your forehead or your outer hand. Catch is, if you don't, if you follow God, or if you just don't follow the Anti-Christ what so ever, they behead you.

Ewage right? Yeah, they didn't show it in the movie, thank God. haha.

Anyhow, the movie follows these three men, one of which I haven't mentioned but his name is Tom Neman(played by Jeffery Dean Morgan), his wife in the movie has taken the mark of the beast and has become a close follower to the Anti-Christ.

I'm rambling now. You just have to see the movie for yourself.

Anyway, the character Jerry is (SPOILER ALERT) saved in the end. And when he tells his friend Brody(who thinks all Christian are insane), he got saved, he describes it as "being free" and he is a criminal by the way. He says that all his burdens are off his shoulders.

This is EXACTLY how I felt a year ago. Now, I've grown up Christian, but I went to Winter Jam '07 and didn't even know what was in store that night. Personally, to by quite honest, I was there to have a little party. You know, there is the serious side of being a Christian and than the party, and I always considered the music the party.

But Tony Nollan took stage that night. A famous pastor/speaker who is mostly known for touring with Casting Crowns. He started to talk about how hell was no game, and how us as teenagers(Winter Jam is mostly for teenagers, in case you've never heard of it), need to start paying attention to our faith. But he was also really funny and kept us all laughing while he spoke. And at the end of his 'sermon' he asked all if they had never been saved, to put their hands in the air and pray the sinner's prayer with him.

Now, when I was 6, I was saved. My mother prayed the sinner's prayer with me and I got baptized shortly after. So this part will sound really weird. But I raised my hands in the air. It'snot that I didn't know what was going on so I just went with whatever I was told...I felt something. I something inside of my heart. Something, and at the time I didn't know what, was telling me to pray with Tony. I just did it. I didn't think about it or anything.

That night, I didn't exactly notice much change. That might be the distraction of my absolutely pounding headache(hey, Hawk Nelson, SCC, & Jeremy Camp definitely know how to get you on your feet), but the next morning, I mean the minute I woke up, I felt completely free. I don't even know how to describe it. I mean, the best way I can describe it, is in a cheesy manor, so bare with me here, it really, truthfully, hoenstly, completely feels like your soul and heart are just flying.

I remember, the first words out of my mouth that morning were, "Thank you dear Jesus, with all of me that I am, thank you for blessing me so much to get to experience this."

And that was just the beginning. (:

Point of this: I'm changed. Entirely as a human being because of God. I mean, His one and only Son, Jesus Christ, DIED for my sins. He let himself be tortured for ME. For you and for me. He was hung on a cross, humiliated, your worst nightmare...FOR US. And he rose from the dead, and gave us all hope and literally saved us.

I feel like I'll never be able to return that, but all God asks of me is to praise him. And to lead others to the Lord.

So how is it, that one can bash this so much. Treat it like it's just insane. It's not a fairytale. It's not some sort of fiction that some old guy came up with. It's true and real.

I can't prove this to you, logically. All I can tell you is I've never been so sure of anything in my entire life. That there is a God in heaven that loves me for me. Loves every part of me even if I sin against Him, He'll still love me with everything He is.

I see it this way as given this from Stephen Baldwin. September 10th, 2001 and before. If someone told you that on 9/11/01, two airplanes would be hijacked and flown into the two twin towers in NY and the Penta. in Wash., from people in Iraq, what would you say? I know what I'd say, like Stephen, I'd say, "What? No way! Not this day in age! With the secrurity we have? Impossible."

But it happened. The impossible happened. So it's not so impossible for there to be a God that loves you. For everything you are.

"I see the fire of a new generation, burning it's way through the strive on your nation. So rise, everybody rise. I know the love, of the God, full on purpose, bringing forth hope to the lost and hopeless, so rise. Everybody rise. Mercy has fallen, set us free. Justice is calling us to see. What is it we're breathing for? Love, open up our eyes. Open up the skies. Show us why our hearts are beating. "
- "Open Our Eyes" Caleb Chapman.


it's 6:13 AM now