i found myself in the past two months or so, losing faith in you. i found myself almost not as interested, although i tried because i'm a fan.


you disappointed me. you'd changed. and i didn't like one second of it. you'd traded in ed hardy for gucci, loui vuitton, and anything with a price tag higher than you could have ever afforded in '05 when my interest in you started. you'd seem'd to have lost your thoughts on being a christian, giving into the mainstream world and that was the main thing that attracted me to you. you were over all...the boys i didn't start liking at first.

but today i found myself, in my room, alone, with nothing to do. i popped up my itunes playlist and came across your music. i didn't really want to listen to it, but i did it anyway. i missed it.


as i heard the familiar sounds of 'year 3k' to 'underdog' to the sappiness that is of 'wylmite' or even the up-beat, guitar rif pimped 'games'...i slowly realized why i even paid the least bit attention to you.


i went into myspace, and searched for anything that was an old fanfiction i'd already read. that's when i remembered 'shapeshift'. i read this fanfiction back in december/january, and i had
completely forgotten why i had in the first place.


this fanfiction restored my total faith in you boys.


i know this sounds completely, certifiedly retarded, but this fanfiction revolves around the changes of you. it's about a young girl, with no family, who finds her way into the hearts of you three boys.


she found you in a mall, back when you were first starting out, and fell absolutely in love with the music you played.

she ended up being the girl that slept in the bunk no more than three feet away and the girl who informed every jonas fan of everything you did.


she became the jonas sister. (:


long story short, she endures all of your changes and gets easily mad at you for it. almost ashamed to have ever had anything to do with you.


but than- oh, just read it. (:
http://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendID=200168668&blogID=327936172&Mytoken=523E7C88-928E-4BB0-AAF0BDF74EE835A039802923
ADD THIS SITE: http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendID=200168668 [[last name JONAS]] & revert back to the link i gave you of shapeshift. (:


okay, point being!


your personalities are those of which i can turn to wheather it be a fanfic, a video, or more importantly;; YOUR MUSIC.. i take you for granted. i don't realize just how much you've turned my life around. you've shaped me up to a better person. i'm more optimistic because of you. i broke out of my shell because of joe. i realized my full potential because of nicholas. and found someone with not only great fashion sense[[lol]] but someone whom i want to grow up to be like in kevin[[not to mention, play some rockin' guitar! haha]].


so jonas brothers..


forget everything i ever said about you changing, forget all of your glitz and glamour at times, forget any girl you've ever gotten youself wrapped into...


THANK YOU FOR BEING YOU. BEING MUSIC I CAN TURN TO WHEN I AM DOWN. THAT IS SOMETHING I WILL NEVER FORGET, AND ALWAYS FEEL I OWE TO YOU. (:

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