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AYO, I'M TAYO!
I like pie.
& God, so so much.
JESUS IS LIFE.
I know the muffinman.
My family+friends come second.
Than that amazing thing called music.
& that's all you need to know.(:

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Sunday, August 10, 2008
woah.

woah, i haven't updated in a bit have i?
i started a livejournal graphics community called 'candycoateddd'.
because i really needed a more organized place to put all of my graphics.
& i'm not xx_spazzilla on LJ either, now i'm mercyhas_fallen

anyway.
on actual reailty of my life, summer has been great to me!
i'm getting to spend more time with my family,
getting to chill with friends,
but the best part of this entire summer is what God has done in my heart!

seriously guys,
GOD IS AMAZING!
i'm so proud to be not of this world.

I said, "I will not again see the LORD,
the LORD, in the land of the living;
no longer will I look on mankind,
or be with those who now dwell in this world.
- Isaiah 38:11

oh, do you like the new playlist?
i'm lovin' it.
beeteedoubleu, i'm eating mcdonalds right now.
get it? haha, yahh. that was lame.

uhm, one more thing !
PRINCESS COWBODY HATS!
that was for my best friend. xD


it's 5:13 PM now

Saturday, July 26, 2008
cheezlaweez, teenies need to calm the flip down !

http://whypurity.org/Home/RollingStone

all of the fans are FREAKING out about the article, but personally, i was saying the same things the other day. i agree with it.

apparently, this dude is, "too religious" and needs to "lighten up."

they are especially making fun of the line that says, "the devil is after the jonas brothers."

UGHH.
wtcheezlaweez happened to this forgizzling world??


it's 10:01 PM now

Friday, July 25, 2008
ROLLiNG STONE ..



i hate that stupid cover. so much. it makes me lose respect for them. it makes me disappointed. i don't know why it's such a big deal to me, i mean, obviously i don't see it as the end of the world, and the end of my jonas fandom, but it does make me a little pissed that they'd agree to do that shot.

i'm tired of getting myself worked up on a mainstream celebrity as a role model only to find myself writing blogs like this.

but it's blogs like this that teach me things.
there is this thing called a human being.
your familiar right?
right.

us as human beings look towards others to teach us things, when we have absolute perfection to look towards right in front of us. JESUS.

so why is it that i must look towards somebody who will mess up. i know they will from the start; but i put them on a pedastool and practically call them my idol for doing such things.

jesus is jesus.
jonas is jonas.
& jonas will never live up to my jesus.
ever.

so i need to teach myself to not get worked up over things like this.

it's a cover.

sure thang, bb, it's not a cover i approve of. they are kids still to me, so the last thing i want to see is shirt pulling. my view on this is that joe is a person, and he's selling himself as a piece of meat by taking any pictures like this.

but it could have been a moment of weakness, or maybe they are different from what i thought.

either way, they aren't my idols, so i should only care for them. not myself.

"believe it or not but life not apparently about me anyway.
but i have found one is really is worthy so let me say,
so long self."
- so long self by mercyme.


it's 8:45 AM now

Sunday, July 20, 2008
argh.

am i the only one who is tired of seeing all of these AMAZING christian rock songs that have such a deep meaning being used as camp rock/jonas brothers videos? i mean, seriously? it's fine if you want to use a song like..i used "maintain conciousness" by relient k to one, but that song doesn't have a really deep meaning. a meaning, but not a deep one. but like, "so much love" by rocket summer? you serious?



do these chicks understand that these songs are about GOD? not their 'future husbands' nick, kevin & joe??



i'm glad they actually listen to this stuff, but they need to listen more carefully and actually learn the meaning to these songs.




anyway, i love that photo. kevin = fierce dorkk. (:


it's 12:45 AM now

Thursday, July 17, 2008

okay, that was officially the WEIRDEST dream ever, and i don't think i'll ever touch a hair roller again because of it.

long story..

changed the layout last night.
took FOREVER.


it's 2:21 PM now

Wednesday, July 16, 2008
untitled because it's 6:17am, mkay?

my mp3 stopped docking to my computer & it's running out of battery power.

you can entitle this the worst day ever.


it's 4:17 AM now

Friday, July 11, 2008
PRAY.

Prayer request, you guys ;
Pray for the amazing Chapman family. It's the first concert since Maria, TONIGHT. According to Jim, it's really confusing for them right now.

God please heal them.


it's 7:26 PM now

Monday, July 7, 2008

i've had a REALLY bad week in buying things.
1) i found just about the greatest pair of hightops yesterday but my mom hated the material and said flat out no, and i'm telling you, they were the cutest shoes i've ever seen.
2) i STILL don't have the freaking relient k cd!
3) tomorrow, jb will be in my area. tickets went down about twenty bucks this morning and i can get four tickets(which is what i need) for $48. do you know how amazing that is?? my parents said we can afford the tickets but not the gas money. all together we'd be on the road for about nine hours. there and back. i wish i could just fly those five hours there and back.
I AM SO FREAKING SAD AND FRUSTRATED RIGHT NOW.
this is a bad week.



it's 3:22 PM now

Monday, June 30, 2008
oh yahhh.

current song: mariella - kate nash.
current mood: content.
(:

9 days until jb in oklahoma.
i won't be there. :(
unless i get last minute tickets.
my mom won't deal with the ticket prices.
i guess i don't blame her..
but still, i want to go so badly!
i can't even drive up there and wait for
the bus like the nerd i am. haha.
*sigh*
i'll get over it, but on the 8th, i'll be a little..
frustrated.

so this brings me to all the concerts i've been to:
first concert: i don't remember alot about this one...but i went to the signs of life tour w/ steven curtis chapman when i was..4, 5, or 6.
secondconcert: i was 8. steven curtis chapman+geoff moore, speechless tour.
third: i was 10, live out loud tour, steven curtis chapman+nichole nordeman+nate saint.
fourth: all about love, intimate acoustic tour, dallas, texas w/ steven curtis chapman.
fifth: winter jam '07 w/ jeremy camp, steven curtis chapman, the following(ahh, fave band), sanctus real(second favorite), britt nicole, hawk nelson(third fave), newsong, george bush inpersonator(LOL, he was HYSTERICAL), & tony nollan(speaker/pastor).
sixth: live in this moment '07, steven curtis chapman+sanctus real+bethany dillon. amazing night. loved every minute of it. went back stage and met steven+the fam, & got to talk to one of my role models, matt hammit! okay..insert fangirl moment. haha.

so as you can see..i've seen alot of my favorite artists. but to complete the absolute NEED TO SEE list i have to go see:
Relient K(favorite band of all time, no questions asked).
Switchfoot.
Jonas Brothers.
Mute Math.
Dave Barnes.
Matt Wertz.
Metro Station.
Paramore.
Demi Lovato.
& Aly & AJ(acoustic. they'd be amazing).

ughhhh.
i could have seen the jonas brothers last summer for $10 a ticket. i don't exactly regret it, to be honest, if i had gone, who knows if i would had been truley saved. now, the time before, when they came to the mall here, I REGRET WITH EVERY FIBER OF MY BEING. they played acousticly..and ah, i just wish i could have gone! i knew about it, i just decided not to go. i suck at life, right?

anyway.
we could afford to go to the concert, my mom just thinks 70 is insane. so do i...but tickets won't go down for another 2-3 years for them. & who knows if they'll ever come back?? ughh.
i'm done with this fangirl post. byee.


it's 2:37 PM now

Saturday, June 28, 2008
picktoorr.

this picture...MAKES MY LIFE.


it's 12:32 PM now

Friday, June 27, 2008
O.O

O.O
Today, I stuck my foot into a shoo'.
You know, expectin' the norm.
Little did I know that 10 minutes later,
I'd feel this odd tickling on my big toe.
& I'd realize there was something or rather,
someone in my shoo'.

There was an EVIL EVIL EVIL water bug in it.
Dude, have you seen those things?
They are like..HONKERS! whhhoaa.

mmkaybrbgottagoamputatemuhbigtoekthnx.


it's 4:51 PM now

Thursday, June 26, 2008
open letter to obama.

open letter to obama ;
i'm NOT voting for you.
the end.


it's 7:53 AM now

"show me why my heart is beating"

Last night, my mother and I happened to catch a movie called, "Six: The Mark Unleashed." The first 15-20 minutes hint to nothing but criminals and such. -But the fact that it was on TBN intrigued us, so we kept watching.

I was absolutely astounded by this movie. It is such a good Christian flick. In all honesty, I've been trying to figure to myself why people would be so blind when they see movies like this. Why they don't even want to listen to what you have to say about Jesus.

One of the leads in the movie, Jerry Lewis(played by Kevin Downes, a Christian actor whom I'm very familiar with), who started out as a criminal in the movie. Hacking was his skill & stealing cars and such with his buddy, Brody Sutton(played by David White, another one I'm very familiar with), was completely in the norm for him.

But the entire movie is based around the Anti-Christ's reign, and the effect it will have on Christians. Trust me, this movie makes me hope and pray that He will rapture Christians into heaven before this can happen to us. haha. I'm such a woos. Anyway, the reason to my woosyness is because the Anti-Christ, makes you take the mark of the beast. Which is mentioned in the Bible, in Revelations. Now, if you aren't familiar with what exactly this is, I think it kind of speaks for itself, but it's a symbol that is unknown right now to what to be, but since the Anti-Christ will want world peace and such, it'll most likely be something like a united world sign, like in the movie, if you follow Satan, which is the Anti-Christ, you must imbedd this mark into your forehead or your outer hand. Catch is, if you don't, if you follow God, or if you just don't follow the Anti-Christ what so ever, they behead you.

Ewage right? Yeah, they didn't show it in the movie, thank God. haha.

Anyhow, the movie follows these three men, one of which I haven't mentioned but his name is Tom Neman(played by Jeffery Dean Morgan), his wife in the movie has taken the mark of the beast and has become a close follower to the Anti-Christ.

I'm rambling now. You just have to see the movie for yourself.

Anyway, the character Jerry is (SPOILER ALERT) saved in the end. And when he tells his friend Brody(who thinks all Christian are insane), he got saved, he describes it as "being free" and he is a criminal by the way. He says that all his burdens are off his shoulders.

This is EXACTLY how I felt a year ago. Now, I've grown up Christian, but I went to Winter Jam '07 and didn't even know what was in store that night. Personally, to by quite honest, I was there to have a little party. You know, there is the serious side of being a Christian and than the party, and I always considered the music the party.

But Tony Nollan took stage that night. A famous pastor/speaker who is mostly known for touring with Casting Crowns. He started to talk about how hell was no game, and how us as teenagers(Winter Jam is mostly for teenagers, in case you've never heard of it), need to start paying attention to our faith. But he was also really funny and kept us all laughing while he spoke. And at the end of his 'sermon' he asked all if they had never been saved, to put their hands in the air and pray the sinner's prayer with him.

Now, when I was 6, I was saved. My mother prayed the sinner's prayer with me and I got baptized shortly after. So this part will sound really weird. But I raised my hands in the air. It'snot that I didn't know what was going on so I just went with whatever I was told...I felt something. I something inside of my heart. Something, and at the time I didn't know what, was telling me to pray with Tony. I just did it. I didn't think about it or anything.

That night, I didn't exactly notice much change. That might be the distraction of my absolutely pounding headache(hey, Hawk Nelson, SCC, & Jeremy Camp definitely know how to get you on your feet), but the next morning, I mean the minute I woke up, I felt completely free. I don't even know how to describe it. I mean, the best way I can describe it, is in a cheesy manor, so bare with me here, it really, truthfully, hoenstly, completely feels like your soul and heart are just flying.

I remember, the first words out of my mouth that morning were, "Thank you dear Jesus, with all of me that I am, thank you for blessing me so much to get to experience this."

And that was just the beginning. (:

Point of this: I'm changed. Entirely as a human being because of God. I mean, His one and only Son, Jesus Christ, DIED for my sins. He let himself be tortured for ME. For you and for me. He was hung on a cross, humiliated, your worst nightmare...FOR US. And he rose from the dead, and gave us all hope and literally saved us.

I feel like I'll never be able to return that, but all God asks of me is to praise him. And to lead others to the Lord.

So how is it, that one can bash this so much. Treat it like it's just insane. It's not a fairytale. It's not some sort of fiction that some old guy came up with. It's true and real.

I can't prove this to you, logically. All I can tell you is I've never been so sure of anything in my entire life. That there is a God in heaven that loves me for me. Loves every part of me even if I sin against Him, He'll still love me with everything He is.

I see it this way as given this from Stephen Baldwin. September 10th, 2001 and before. If someone told you that on 9/11/01, two airplanes would be hijacked and flown into the two twin towers in NY and the Penta. in Wash., from people in Iraq, what would you say? I know what I'd say, like Stephen, I'd say, "What? No way! Not this day in age! With the secrurity we have? Impossible."

But it happened. The impossible happened. So it's not so impossible for there to be a God that loves you. For everything you are.

"I see the fire of a new generation, burning it's way through the strive on your nation. So rise, everybody rise. I know the love, of the God, full on purpose, bringing forth hope to the lost and hopeless, so rise. Everybody rise. Mercy has fallen, set us free. Justice is calling us to see. What is it we're breathing for? Love, open up our eyes. Open up the skies. Show us why our hearts are beating. "
- "Open Our Eyes" Caleb Chapman.


it's 6:13 AM now

Thursday, June 5, 2008
updatess.

so i'm going to change the layout again. i got really bored with this one quickly. lol

#1: HILARY CLINTON STAY IN! Not that I'm voting for her..but I don't want to give Obama the chance to win the election. I'm seriously tired of all these 'young adults' thinking they are being so fresh, modern and hip for voting for the first African-American president who's going to 'change' American. 'It's time for a change..' but if you ask the man what he's going to change he has no answer. Before you say it, I have NOTHING against him being black. AT ALL. It's the fact that he's Muslim and he's just dangerous in general. Anyone who votes for him has no idea what they are getting this country into.

#2: On a happier note, I drew a taco on my foot last night while Vanessa and I were goofing off. How rad am I?? :P

#3: I'm getting my haircut today or tomorrow. LIKE THIS!


so right now it's more like this:




















that's about it..yahh.

keep praying for the chapman, i know they still need it. <33


it's 11:26 AM now

Sunday, May 25, 2008
for maria.(:

Light up a cyber candle for Maria & Will & the entire Chapman family.
http://www.gratefulness.org/candles
Group name: CHAP

& today is Caleb's graduation. He isn't walking across the stage, because he is a homeschool graduate..none the less. (:
Go congratulate him.
It's more than okay, even after everything he's going through.
Go to: http://chapmanchannel.typepad.com/caleb


it's 5:45 AM now

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

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these were the many faces of taylor when she reazlied that cookie won american idol.
THE FOLLOWING BOY DESERVED IT MORE THAN ANY OTHER!


i love cookie, i mean, ik, ik, he's from where i live, so i should be all: "WOOPEE!!" but no. ryan seacrest just had to say DAVID COOK! crap.

DAVID ARCHULETA FTW!


it's 7:32 PM now

Monday, May 19, 2008

holy crowley. i am so freaking mad right now. i just need some flipping jonas brothers tickets. there are over 50 seats left at the closest show near me. but i don't have any money. & my parents refuse to pay it. ugh. ugh. ugh.

i need me some jonas songs.
this was a fangirl post.
get over it.


it's 11:52 PM now




thank you jonas brothers.




i found myself in the past two months or so, losing faith in you. i found myself almost not as interested, although i tried because i'm a fan.


you disappointed me. you'd changed. and i didn't like one second of it. you'd traded in ed hardy for gucci, loui vuitton, and anything with a price tag higher than you could have ever afforded in '05 when my interest in you started. you'd seem'd to have lost your thoughts on being a christian, giving into the mainstream world and that was the main thing that attracted me to you. you were over all...the boys i didn't start liking at first.

but today i found myself, in my room, alone, with nothing to do. i popped up my itunes playlist and came across your music. i didn't really want to listen to it, but i did it anyway. i missed it.


as i heard the familiar sounds of 'year 3k' to 'underdog' to the sappiness that is of 'wylmite' or even the up-beat, guitar rif pimped 'games'...i slowly realized why i even paid the least bit attention to you.


i went into myspace, and searched for anything that was an old fanfiction i'd already read. that's when i remembered 'shapeshift'. i read this fanfiction back in december/january, and i had
completely forgotten why i had in the first place.


this fanfiction restored my total faith in you boys.


i know this sounds completely, certifiedly retarded, but this fanfiction revolves around the changes of you. it's about a young girl, with no family, who finds her way into the hearts of you three boys.


she found you in a mall, back when you were first starting out, and fell absolutely in love with the music you played.

she ended up being the girl that slept in the bunk no more than three feet away and the girl who informed every jonas fan of everything you did.


she became the jonas sister. (:


long story short, she endures all of your changes and gets easily mad at you for it. almost ashamed to have ever had anything to do with you.


but than- oh, just read it. (:
http://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendID=200168668&blogID=327936172&Mytoken=523E7C88-928E-4BB0-AAF0BDF74EE835A039802923
ADD THIS SITE: http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendID=200168668 [[last name JONAS]] & revert back to the link i gave you of shapeshift. (:


okay, point being!


your personalities are those of which i can turn to wheather it be a fanfic, a video, or more importantly;; YOUR MUSIC.. i take you for granted. i don't realize just how much you've turned my life around. you've shaped me up to a better person. i'm more optimistic because of you. i broke out of my shell because of joe. i realized my full potential because of nicholas. and found someone with not only great fashion sense[[lol]] but someone whom i want to grow up to be like in kevin[[not to mention, play some rockin' guitar! haha]].


so jonas brothers..


forget everything i ever said about you changing, forget all of your glitz and glamour at times, forget any girl you've ever gotten youself wrapped into...


THANK YOU FOR BEING YOU. BEING MUSIC I CAN TURN TO WHEN I AM DOWN. THAT IS SOMETHING I WILL NEVER FORGET, AND ALWAYS FEEL I OWE TO YOU. (:



it's 4:50 AM now

Thursday, May 15, 2008
go speed racer, go speed racer!

oh my gosh. seriously when will the reviews stop??
hollywood sucks, i mean, to them, if a movie doesn't have sex+violence, it's automatically epic fail.
what's wrong with a movie that's just good, clean cut, fun?? that's why all the disney+nickelodeon movies are considered sugar. just because it doesn't have sex or violence attatched to it.

NEWS FLASH HOLLYWOOD!
there are some people in this world that don't need immorality to have fun in life.

in other news,
narnia is tomorrow!
holy geez, i'm freaking out!
i love that movie to pieces!


it's 4:59 PM now

Sunday, April 13, 2008
Ehh.

oooohhh haiiii.
i'm watching america's next top model.
yes, i find this amusing.
pedro from napolean dynamite is on this episode.
i have no idea what season this is.
i think this show is HYSTERICAL though.

i love this picture alot.

joe, bb, what's with the fur coat??


it's 11:07 AM now

Thursday, April 10, 2008
Bahh.

New blog address. Will I give you my old one? You ask..NO. It was lame. Really, really lame. & childish.

So..I'm starting fresh.

i LiKE: God, Jesus(kind of the same thing, right?), Christian Rock music, movies, crayons, Jonas Brothers, Relient K, Mute Math, Broadway stuff..i'm wierdly intrigued by British/Chinese type stuff. ;) uhm..i'll give more later.

YIPEE SKIPPEEEE! :D

taylor tay xoxo


it's 1:04 PM now